This is something I'm grappling with. I've been cheated on and cheated but they were all regular relationships, not in a marriage. I've been married for 15 years & only a small part of those years happily. It's been years since we have had sex & when we did it's never been the passionate type that I crave. It's always been okay but not what I want. I want someone that is in sync with what I want & even though we'd talked about it in the past it never moved beyond mediocre. I've had incredible sex in the past & miss that. There is someone in my circle of friends that is so messy but I know the sex would be amazing. I guess as in your story but in the opposite direction I'm allowing myself to be groomed towards it. I haven't shut down the possibility. I know I should get divorced since not only are we incompatible in sex but most of the other parts of our marriage as well. It's tricky trying to navigate that & something that's going to be difficult to do for many reasons. But oh how I long to be desired & that non-stop arousal & let's not forget the being persued. I want hot sex again & it's ready & willing in front of me.
This is something I'm grappling with. I've been cheated on and cheated but they were all regular relationships, not in a marriage. I've been married for 15 years & only a small part of those years happily. It's been years since we have had sex & when we did it's never been the passionate type that I crave. It's always been okay but not what I want. I want someone that is in sync with what I want & even though we'd talked about it in the past it never moved beyond mediocre. I've had incredible sex in the past & miss that. There is someone in my circle of friends that is so messy but I know the sex would be amazing. I guess as in your story but in the opposite direction I'm allowing myself to be groomed towards it. I haven't shut down the possibility. I know I should get divorced since not only are we incompatible in sex but most of the other parts of our marriage as well. It's tricky trying to navigate that & something that's going to be difficult to do for many reasons. But oh how I long to be desired & that non-stop arousal & let's not forget the being persued. I want hot sex again & it's ready & willing in front of me.